george gershwin turned 110 five days ago. listen!!!
listening to rhapsody in blue reminds me of lit today, after which i just felt like some dimwit plebian... i really, really like modernist literature. i like it heaps more than the free-the-blacks-racial-equality thing we do in paper 1, but i can't seem to get it right during the test. i also need to learn to write faster and think faster and keep attention span! omg, i was all fidgety today and so the last essay about conflict in long day's journey ended like this: tyrone's blunt complacence adds to the... best thing is, i didn't even know what i wanted to write in the ..., so that is bad, no? i ended it with 'mood', though, five seconds after we were supposed to stop. mood? what mood? bleh
at least the great gatsby went well, and the prose was enjoyable... i really like the great gatsby as a whole embodiment of decadence thing- i wonder if materialism (in the blunt, james gatsby sense) is really a bad thing? did you know wallace stevens also wrote the emperor of ice cream? if i read the poem properly i would have chose it, but i skipped to the prose instead cause it was so much more... modern. not in the literal sense. ha ha.
- reserving judgements is a matter of infinite hope
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panadaa- September 30th, 2008
- poor, poor massa
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- panadaa
- September 29th, 2008
f1 was yesterday! so my brother and i didn't really walk around a lot cause the view was bad at the bends and the straight stretches were boring- we eventually settled down somewhere along connaught drive? wasn't too far away from the raikkonen crash, but i still didn't see it happen. of all places.... an accident must happen on a straight road! why!!?!?! rosberg is... dazzling. hamilton should be cheerier by now, i wish i had pit tickets but i must be content, content
f1 was such an adventure from the start till the end- it makes me so sad to feel normalcy around the city centre again
i will enjoy the lit paper tomorrow and will not stress out over it, whatever happened to prose appreciation? math was relaxing today i nearly fell asleep and did the questions at a rate of... 30 minutes per question. i wonder if that is a good thing?
- i can't sleep
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- panadaa
- September 23rd, 2008
i can't find my art philo. notes that i took great effort to think through. this makes me want to cry or puke or do both at the same time.
ki is such an irony; we're taught about the bigger scheme of things and then when exams come along it's all about time management and exam skills and essay plans i forget the point. and so the point is? so wednesday is the ki and lit finals... i have never felt so much ambivalence and it kills
life is so bleak- i am not in control of my mind
just
kill
me
now
- my ideas are all over the place
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- panadaa
- September 17th, 2008
formula one in two weeks time dad got awesome tickets can't wait to go but oh well
i am so tired
and well, well, jealousy is a horrible feeling
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- panadaa
- September 6th, 2008
hola
so this week is almost over. in between aloofness and serendipity the exams are, really in eighteen days. and i'm really trying to be okay, it's just awful how taxing the september week-break is, and how much we all must achieve in seven days. in academic sense i think i am okay, but how do you ever know that you are? i trust myself to write a laudable essay in a passably short period ot time, and my confidence is built upon trust in myself and my command of the language... science was tough while it lasted but i'm glad i'm left on my own to think now.
i watched the film version of beloved in snippets and it's really a horror film not really in the 'harrowing human repugnance' sense, but like horror horror. slavery was so psychologically repressive, but it's not a very personal movie, but now i know how the characters were meant to be depicted
sleep awaits adios
- i need faster fingers
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- panadaa
- August 22nd, 2008
luce is over and so is band practice for the time being. the music was definitely very inspirational and not going for enough band practices before the concert is my disgrace =( . i sight-read the second clarinet score for phantom and i guess that didn't go too badly. saturday night fever was better cause it was a strong-beat sort of song and the audience is kind to pop... the norfolk band was great, they were better than what we played that night- definitely more confident. but we've been better!!! i swear!!!
music is magic even from the backstage! the combined pieces started bad, definitely, but they got better and i'm sad because it's the first and last time we'd play some of the music (like norfolk and 1812)... well, i hope i get better in time for the MEGA HUGE ABOMINABLE SYF
- second
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- panadaa
- August 21st, 2008
you've got an extra special heart
a perfect light that shines through
and it seems the hardest part
is shining back at you
shining back at you
so forgive me
cause I don't know what to do
when you look at me
there can be no hesitation
there cannot be a close second to you
i don't know what to do
when you look at me
when you look at me
i've got a perfectly normal heart
bruised and broken from within
at times I don't know how to start
to let you in here
to let you in here
so forgive me
cause I don't know what to do
when you look at me
there can be no hesitation
there cannot be a close second to you
i don't know what to do
when you look at me
when you look at me
cause I don't know what to do
when you look at me
there can be no hesitation
there cannot be a close second to you
to let you in here
there cannot be a close second to you
i'll just find the something that i love and i need and pull through pull through pull through pull through pull through till the struggle starts. we cannot be everything so i will pretend that i am a fighter
- with a hundred and ten cornets close at hand
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- panadaa
- August 16th, 2008
the olympics is awesome. watching shawn johnson makes me feel so happy and i really wanted her to win!
bad weather is... scary, but it was quite an experience trying to keep a tent on the ground when the pegs have flown up and and fly sheet wasn't even pegged properly in the first place. camping is so fun, someday i'm going to camp somewhere mountainy and cold with a warm sleeping bag. bliss!
anyway, i went for the acsi guitar concert and it was great, although it was a little weird in the middle, it turned into some kind of acoustic concert in the middle. eugenia you were awesome even if i couldn't really see you yay to people who perform. music is so magical
i also watched the music man sometime last week. here is a link to listen to 76 trombones!!
so life will be okay till the exams
- before i sleep!
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- panadaa
- August 11th, 2008
yaaay
